Dave's Grumblings

I've had my energies focussed on entirely the wrong things recently, it's a habit that I'm finding increasingly difficult to break. I told myself that this year would be different, that I'd focus my time more effectively on the appropriate things (such as that not-so-insignificant entity, University), and here I am, in the third week of term and already struggling to find the motivation to knuckle down and get on with what's important rather than what's fun. It seems like a monumentous amount of effort to concentrate on the first, and only, piece of coursework for longer than 15 femtoseconds at a time. What's infuriating is that even if I don't get any work done, the end of the day rolls around and I've got absolutely nothing to show for all my time spent avoiding coursework. The cycle needs to be broken, I can't continue like this in my 3rd and final year. You'd have thought by now that I'd have the self-discipline to just get on with it, but seemingly I don't. I've become used to settling for second-best, and just floating along without really pushing myself. A 55% average for the past two years might not be considered 'bad', but I know I'm capable of so much more. Time to get my act together.